Friday, October 28, 2011

The Greatest Gift Ever, Part 2

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I never feel comfortable if I have to stay long in the hospital. I think I can't do anything whatever I want. I can't play music, I can't cook, and I can't editing my blog. The simplest task when I stayed in hospital is sleep. Yeah, S-L-E-E-P. It makes me bored. 

Mom and dad are going to go to administration. Then, my friends came.
"Kells, what happened?"
"Are you okay?"
I can't say that I have liver disease. I don't want to disappointed them. What should I do? Lie? I never lie to someone. Even that I have liver disease. I never talk about that in front of my friends and my big family. 
"Kellen, please tell us!" Jazzie shouted at me. 
"Are you sure?" I asked them. 
"What do ya mean?" 
"Are you ready to hear this?" I asked. Jazzie, Lola, Gerald and Jeremy said, "Yes."
Wish me luck to say this horrible sentence. "Actually, I have liver disease."
Jazzie quiet. Lola quiet. Gerald quiet. Jeremy quiet. I quiet.
"You're kidding, right?" Lola tried to hiding her sad expression. 
"No, I'm not." 
Suddenly, Jazzie cry. "I can't believe it." "When did you get that disease?"
"I think when I was 2 years old." 
"Oh my god.." Jeremy started cry. "Get well soon, Kells." 


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Gerald said, "Get well soon, Kells.". I think that sentece could not help. 'Cause doctor said that my life is six months left. 
Forget about that. I don't want to remember that again. Then, my doctor, Dr. Simon come. "Hey Kells, how are you?"
"I'm fine." 
Dr. Simon walked and sit beside of me. "Hey, why do you sad?"
"You said that my life is six months left." I started crying. Dr. Simon didn't say anything.
"It's hard to say, but it's true. I can't do anything anymore to help you, except liver transplant. I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to do that."
"Umm, it's okay. But what can I do in six months?"
"Do whatever you want." Said Dr. Simon. "That's the simplest task to love the world. Make your parents proud of you. Make your friends happy."
If I think twice, It's true. "Thanks, Doctor." I smiled. "Can I go home?"
"You're not feel better yet, kid." Said Dr. Simon. "If you feel better, you may go home."
"But I feel better right now." I said. I really want to leave this place. 
"Tomorrow, okay?" Asked doctor. "Yes, yes, yes!" Shouted me. Finally I can go home, even tomorrow. 

My friends come. 
"Hi, Kells!" Shouted Lola. "We brought some fruits for you!"
"Gee, thanks!" I took the fruits from Lola. "You shouldn't give this. These fruits are beautiful."
"I hope you'll be alright." Said Jazzie. "I hope you can go to school, if you have a bad disease. School will be a quiet place without you."
"There are more students in there, Jazz. Not only me." I laughed. 
"But you're our best friend." Said Jeremy. "Get well soon."
I smiled. "Gerald, do you have another sentences besides 'Get well soon'? I think you've said that twice." I laughed.
"Hey, I'm not the poem writer. I don't have any." Gerald laguhed.




...
After 2 weeks I left the hospital, I joined choir team for the festival in my city. I being an accompanist in there. I remember when mom forbade me to join. She said that I'm not ready to stand up for a long time, remember my disease. I'm not allowed to walk and stand up too often. Then you can guess, If I go to the mall or the place that needs a stamina to walk, I have to use wheel chair. I hate to use that. 
But I told once again that I just want to be an accompanist. The accompanist didn't need to stand up too much. Without say anything, mom allowed me. 

The first practice is today, on Wednesday. And I can't believe it, 2 weeks later I'll have my birthday, my 15th birthday. 
I practiced seriously, 'Cause I'm the accompanist. I can't wait for the festival!





Thursday, October 27, 2011

The Greatest Gift Ever, Part 1

This is my life, this is my world.
God gaves me an amazing world with some amazing people and friends inside.
My parents, my friends, my family.

They love me so much. So am I. I love them so much. They're the greatest treasure I've ever had. They can't buy with money. 
I played with my friends at my house. Lola, Jeremy, Gerald, and Jazzie. They're my best friends. 
"Kells, now it's your turn," Said Jazzie. We're playing Snakes & Ladders. I know, that game is for the children under 10 years old. But we're still playing that until now. I'm almost 15, and I'll have my birthday on March. Now it's February.
"Okay," I shake the dice. "I got six!"
"Cool!" Said Jeremy. "I always going down when I played this game."
"Don't give up!" I said. We're enjoying the game together.

Right now I'm fine and I'm not feel anything, until.....
"Kells, what's that?" Asked Jazzie. She really confused.
"What do ya mean?" I became confused.
"The blood." Said Jazzie. "It's on your mouth." Now I'm afraid.
"You're kidding, right?" 
"I'm serious." I became worried. I ran to my bathroom and I saw by myself. The fresh blood is in the sink. Oh my gosh, It's happening.
"Kells?" Gerald knocked my bathroom door. "Is everything alright?" 
I can't talk. My mouth is full of my blood. I'm dizzy, I feel I want to blacked out. "Kells?" He knocked again. "Are you in there?"
"Yes, don't worry." I'm dizzy. Not dizzy, but EXTRAORDINARY dizzy. I want Gerald to call my mom, but It's hard to talk. I can't stand. 




........
I woke up.
But I'm not in my bedroom. I'm in the hospital.
Gee, I'm back to my 'Home'. I hate this.
Do you understand? Do you?
Actually, I have liver disease since I was 2 years old. I've known it since I was 8. Of course I'm really shocked. Before that, I've cirrhosis of my liver when I was 4. And I feel that. The problem is, nobody knows that I have liver disease, except my family. I don't want to talk about my disease to my friends, 'cause I don't wanna disappointed them.

I heard my parents and my doctor's conversation.
"Doctor, How is Kellen?" Asked mom with worried voice.
"Actually, It's hard to say this," Said docter. "His age is six months left. His liver is liver has hardened around 22%."
"Oh my gosh." Mom cried. Dad too. Me too. "I'm so sorry." Said doctor. "There is one way to heals him. Liver Transplant."
"Phil, we have to do that." Said mom. "I can't let him go."
"I don't know." Said dad. "I'm just worried if he doesn't ready yet. He's fourteen."

I can't believe it. I just have six months left to love the world. I wanna cry, but I can't.
Mom and dad come to my room. "Mom, what's happened?" I Asked. 
"Are you ready to hear this?" Asked dad. I answered, "Yes."
"Kells, your age is six months left." 
I'm not shocked, 'cause I've heared before. "Umm, It's okay. If that's my destiny, I can't beat."
"But I can't let you go!" Said mom. "I really love you, Kells. You're my lovely son."
"I love you too, mom." I said. "Don't worry, mom. Everything will be alright."

Actually, I don't think that everything will be okay. In fact, I'm kind of sad too. I don't want to leave my beloved people. They loved me, but I just leave it? It's not fair. 
If my destiny is like this, I have to love the world before I go to another place. Loving friends, Finishing junior high school, helping my parents, and show to everyone that I still can do anything, even that I have the worst disease I've ever had.

But, I'm not ready yet to say the truth to my best friends. I now, they can't stand to hear this. I've tried to keep this secret and didn't tell to everyone, but I know, Someday, they'll know it. 
When my grandmother was alive, she always said this to me:
"Just ignore your disease, and start to enjoy the world. Love your parents and your friends as you can. God gaves you a disease, that's not mean that god hates you. Nobody knows when we died. So, everytime, you must be ready. Keep nice to everyone that you know."
I always remember her quote. Yeah, she has the same disease like me, and she died. I really miss her. She always gave me a motivation to enjoy this beautiful world. I'll never forget her quotes.

What should I do now? Do I have to tell to my friends?

Sunday, October 16, 2011

how to make friends

Hi hi!

Everyone needs friends, right?

If you didn't need any friend(s), it means you're crazy weird. Haha. Just kidding.

Thank god we can meet again. Today I want to give a simple tip: How to make a friend(s).

Okay, after I said that, you think that to make a friend(s) didn't need any step or tip. Just said, "Hey, let's be friends!"
It's not easy than you though. Especially, make a Bestie.
Make a friends is not same as we want to date with someone. We don't need to 'shoot' him or her to be our friend. Just give him/her a smile, And started to doing anything together with him/her (Except to cheating together in exams, Its's NOT ALLOWED!
Hey, and Believe in me, you can be friends with boy too. But it doesn't mean that you two are dating. I've being friends with boy, and Believe it or not, it's So FUN!

Make a friends is easy when we're in the new environment, example in your new school. You can change your bad attitude into the good attitude. But in the old school, it's easy too. Simple, just what i said: Smile.

Yeah, Smile Is Beautiful.
If you see a friend that makes you interest with him/her, go to them and invite to talk together. You can talk about favorite artists, about internet, hobbies, and also you can ask him/her where is he/she from if you're in the new school.

Sometimes to be friends, we don't need to say, "Let's be friends!" It can be friends by itself.

And there are some stuff that you need to avoid when you have a relationship.
-Never talk about others (Gossiping).
-Don't try to mock your bestie/others (Remember, you're not perfect).
-Don't use your friend to be your maid.
-DON'T BE A SELFISH PERSON.
-Don't brag yourself in front of your friend.
-DO NOT BRAGGING YOUR EXPENSIVE STUFF IN FRONT OF YOUR FRIEND. RISK: YOU, YOUR FRIEND, END!
-Don't talk about his/her SECRETS in front of others.


List to do when you have a relationship.
-Be nice.
-Invite him/her to study together.
-Keep the secrets each other.
-Sharing the knowledge.


Okay, that's all for me. I hope it works. See ya!



The Royal Queen

Friday, October 14, 2011

TeenTip: Save yourself

Hi. I am the bored teenager.

First, hi. Second, hi. Third, hi again.

Lemme think. I think i haven't introduce myself yet.
Really?

'Kay. You're lucky you are in here. 'Cause I just want to introduced myself just for ONE TIME.
My name is (You can read my name in 'About me') and I want to introduce my real name. 'Cause I always falsifying identity in the internet (Umm, not really, just in omegle and tumblr).

Yeah, our topic today is,

HOW TO SAVE YOURSELF.

I don't introduce the real me. That's the SAFE WAY to SAVE YOURSELF from the CRIMINAL, right?
Yeah, example:

A  : Hey, I'm 21 m Australia, wbu?
Me: 45 f canada.
Me: You're a jerk.
A  : what's ur name?
Me: Belinda.
Me: wbu?
.....

I've chat like this with a stranger before. The stanger ask, "What's ur name?" Then i answered, "Belinda," Then i asked again, "wbu?"

I just asked like that, The stranger was disconnect the chat. I'm pretty happy about that.
The real thing is, my name is NOT Belinda. And I AM NOT 45 YEARS OLD.
Lemme get something straight,

I AM A TEENAGER, NOT AN ADULT.


But you see, lie for surviving yourself or others, it's good. Like, if your friend was hiding from the kidnappers, then they ask you, "Hey, did you see the little girl who run around here?"
Okay, If you asked by the kidnappers like that, it means you can lie to them for saving your friend.
"Sorry, sir. I don't know."

Congratulations. It means you save your friend.

BUT,
If you lie for the bad thing, It's not good. One time, IT'S NOT GOOD. Like, If your mom asked you, "Did you cheat during exams?"

Tik, tok.

I'm sure you'll freeze. In your mind, you said, I am cheating, but I can't tell that I am cheating. I have to do that, 'Cause I haven't study yet and I don't know the answers.


Well, it's your problem why you haven't study last night, if you know that you have an exam tomorrow.

BUT YOU CAN'T LIE, ESPECIALLY TO YOUR PARENTS.

You have to tell the truth.

'Cause,
HONEST IS GOOD, AND
LIE IS BAD.

Okay, that's all from me. Remember, ignore the strangers if the stranger talk to you. We don't know he/she is the bad person, or a good person. As a teenager, just be careful.
PS: Boys could read too! Remember: Safety first.

This is the end of TeenTip.

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