Monday, April 30, 2018

menjadi yang paling kecil di dunia perkuliahan.

Hello human beings,

Udah lama banget ya aku enggak nulis blog lagi? 

Well it's actually okay as no one even visits here anymore haha (trust me this is not a sarcasm)

Jadi selama berbulan-bulan lamanya aku menghabiskan that so-called summer vacation setelah dapat perguruan tinggi, aku belum ada ide buat nulis sesuatu yang baru di blog. Yet I'm writing a novel by now berharap suatu saat bakal selesai, tapi enggak akan ku publikasikan ke blog ini. Mungkin bakal di wattpad. Atau mungkin bakal disimpan aja dan nunggu waktu yang tepat untuk mempublikasikannya. Entahlah. 

Dan sebetulnya, di draft blog aku, aku udah nulis panjaaaaaaang banget dan bisa sampai 10 halaman lebih kalau dipindah ke word tentang perjuanganku dapat PTN, tapi setelah berpikir panjang dan dibaca ulang kayaknya bakal lebih baik kusimpan secara personal aja ceritanya, karena kalau dibaca kesannya bisa jadi lebay dan inti dari ceritaku itu juga enggak jauh-jauh amat dari cerita kebanyakan orang. Gagal snm dulu, berjuang mati-matian buat lolos lewat sbm, belajar dan ngambis tiap hari , nangis-nangis sampai kurang tidur dan akhirnya keterima juga. Sama aja kan, sama yang lain, atau cerita-cerita lainnya yang pernah kalian baca di media sosial? so I don't think my story would inspire a lot buat kamu yang bakal berjuang untuk tahun depan. Mau se-terinspirasinya kamu sama cerita seseorang kalau kamunya enggak mau berjuang ya sama aja bohong nanti. 

Anyways, tahun lalu aku dapat message lewat Instagram dari salah satu teman dekat aku yang sekarang adalah mahasiswa di Universitas Indonesia. Dia cerita sama aku bahwa dia sekarang sedang merasa inferior karena di kelasnya banyak yang ternyata lebih dari dia. Yang ngambis. Yang aktif di kelas. Yang aku pribadi kusebut Anak Masa Depan Cerah (btw istilah itu baru kepikiran saat aku nulis posting ini juga). Di kelasnya kerasa banget atmosfir kompetitifnya.

Memang pasti perasaan seperti kusebutkan di atas enggak jarang muncul di dalam diri maba. Enggak cuma teman dekatku ini yang bilang demikian, banyak teman se-prodi-ku yang cerita tentantg inti masalah yang sama. Teman-teman SMA-ku demikian. Even aku sendiri sedang merasakan hal yang sama. Merasa semua orang pintar and we're nothing. Padahal dulu waktu SMA bisa jadi beberapa di antara kita selalu jadi andalan guru dan kelas, dipandang sebagai orang yang pintar, tapi pas begitu masuk dunia perkuliahan kita justru merasa that we're just a tiny little human being within the others. 

Oh iya, dan di Unpad ada yang namanya matkul TPB (Tahap Pembelajaran Bersama), matkul yang isinya tentang Sustainable Development Goals - program dari PBB untuk memperbaiki dunia. Dari namanya aja udah keren banget, kan? Dan menurutku pribadi topik-topik yang ditawarkan juga sebetulnya menarik (sebetulnya - tapi implementasiannya masih kurang banget. Highly ineffective). Mengajak mahasiswanya untuk turut mewujudkan apa yang dicita-citakan PBB ini - yang mana ada sekitar 17, diataranya menjadikan dunia tanpa kemiskinan dan kelaparan, mempunyai pendidikan berkualitas, adanya kesetaraan gender, dan lain sebagainya. Dan yang enggak kalah 'seru' lagi, di matkul ini dibuat kelas besar yang isinya sekitar ratusan mahasiswa dari 16 fakultas yang ada di Unpad. Kebayang gimana tuh kuliahnya? 

Dan harus kuakui, ikut menjalani kuliah bersama ratusan mahasiswa dalam satu ruangan besar enggak menutup kemungkinan untuk membuatku lebih ciut lagi. Mereka yang aktif ikut diskusi tentang topik yang lagi dibahas dan cara mereka menyampaikan analisanya sudah cukup buat aku semakin minder, apalagi aku yang tipikalnya bukan orang yang suka ngomong di depan umum kecuali kalau disuruh nyanyi. Kalau disuruh menganalisa atau me-review sesuatu aku harus tulis dulu di kertas poin-poinnya, baru bisa menyampaikan. For me being spontaneous is still something hard to do. Untung-untung ada matkul public speaking di prodi aku, dan aku akan memanfaatkan matkul itu dengan sebaik-baiknya supaya aku mampu public speaking. At least bisa mengurangi rasa gugup aku buat ngomong di depan umum. 

Lah, terus masalahnya apa?

Yang mau kubicarakan disini adalah mengenai perasaan aku dan teman-temanku, sebagai mahasiswa baru, ketika merasa bahwa dirinya bukan siapa-siapa karena banyak yang lebih pintar dan kemampuan analisanya bagus ketika ditanya. 

I'll say it's fine. it's really fucking fine. 

Kamu belum satu semester jadi mahasiswa langsung ngambis banget untuk bisa seperti kating-kating kamu yang kemampuan akademik-non-akademiknya bagus? Atau teman-teman seangkatan kamu yang disangka lebih pintar dari kamu? 

Ketika kegiatan belajar berlangsung, dan kamu lihat ada teman kamu yang aktif di kelas dan membuat kamu berspekulasi bahwa dia pintar dari cara dia menyampaikan sesuatu. I say it's not a hundred percent true. Dia memang mungkin punya kecerdasan linguistik. And it shouldn't have made you thought that you are less smart than them. Kita enggak bisa menilai kepintaran dan kecerdasan orang dalam satu aspek saja. Pada dasarnya, semua orang itu cerdas. Hanya saja, kadarnya berbeda dan tipe kecerdasannya berbeda untuk setiap orangnya. Tahu 9 kecerdasan, kan? Seseorang itu bisa jadi kemampuan berbicaranya bagus, tapi kalau diuji kecerdasannya di bidang lain, belum tentu kadarnya sama dengan kemampuan bicaranya yang bisa kita kategorikan sebagai kecerdasan linguistik. Jangan menjadikan akademik sebagai tolak ukur kecerdasan seseorang.

Begitu masuk kuliah, aku ketemu banyaaaaak banget orang-orang hebat, tapi dengan catatan; orang-orang yang hebat non-akademis-nya, menurut pandanganku. Mungkin karena aku masuknya ke fakultas yang sifatnya enggak begitu cognitive-oriented kali ya. Maksudku adalah, berdasarkan yang aku amati selama satu semester, mahasiswa-mahasiswa di fakultasku lebih menonjol karena keterampilannya tinggi. Di Fikom banyak yang jago di bidang musik. Ada yang punya band yang udah sering tampil sana-sini, ada yang duo - satu nge-DJ satu lagi nge-rap, udah pada punya lagu ciptaan sendiri. Yang jago desain banyak. 

Enggak apa-apa. Simpan ambisi kamu dalam hati. Pelan-pelan kamu coba buktikan kalau kamu bisa lebih dari mereka. Public speaking mereka bagus, mungkin karena dulu mereka pernah ikut semacam organisasi, atau memang dari dulu sudah terlatih demikian. Kalau enggak punya pengalaman yang kusebutkan di atas, bukan berarti kita enggak bisa public speaking kan?

Setelah sekian lamanya aku berada di Jatinangor, dan menjadi mahasiswa Fakultas Ilmu Komunikasi, dan karena faktor lingkungan, lambat laun aku jadi ikut terlatih untuk bisa ber-public speaking. Hasilnya apa? Bisa! Asalkan kita ada kemauan, pasti bisa kok.


Friday, March 24, 2017

review: fabricated city

Hi and welcome back!

Fyi I just finished the national-based school exam (which I think was sort of.... meh) and I'll be free for two weeks until the national exam comes. But anyways, I'm going to do another review, which is a movie review!

(well I won't be really free, though I still have to study for four subjects left and study for SBMPTN - in case worse thing happens... I hope not)

In order to cool down myself this evening, I decided to watch one of the movies that I had been dying to watch ever since. It is Fabricated City, one of the new Korean movies that came out this month, appoximately in the first week of March. I first discovered this movie after I found out more about Ji Chang Wook (for you who are into K-Wave, I'm pretty sure you know him as he's quite famous, if I'm not mistaken). I also first knew him from a Korean drama titled The K2, and I was amazed by his acting since then.

(and I had never thought that I would be interested in korean movie industry, or the drama series.)


Here you are brought to the story of Kwon Yu (Ji Chang Wook), an unemployment who spends his time playing action video games, along with other online players. On a night, he received a call from a phone whom the owner is unknown. The caller tells him to return her phone to the motel she stays. He goes to the motel, returns it to the owner, and received the reward for returning the phone. 

Then in the next morning, when he is asleep in his house, the cops break in and arrest him for committing sexual abuse and murder to the girl who asks him to return her phone in the motel. All evidences prove that he is the one who does it, and he's not able to defend himself because of it. Someone put a knife with blood on it and the investigators claim that the fingerprints on the evidences belongs to him. He actually does not do it - he is framed for doing such crime. 

He does not accept the fact that he has just done a sexual abuse and murdered the victim. However, he is sent to the prison and often get beaten by other prisoners, for not obeying the seniors in the prison. Being willing to prove that he is innocent, he tries to escape from the prison by hurting himself so he can be carried out of the prison to the hospital. On the way to the hospital, he successfully escapes and tries not to be recognized by the citizen. On his run, he tries to find out who frames him for committing crimes, with help from four gamers and hackers, and start to team up with them to discover it. 

I've got to say, I was very mesmerized with the plot. I think that makes this film really great. How could the author think of this kind of story? Five gamers trying to solve a crime to prove that Kwon Yu is innocent, just as how they play an action video game together - they first make plans and strategies. I thought 'oh so this is how gamers solve the crime. Quite mesmerizing tho'. The author also didn't make the storyline hard to be digested by our brain. However, it is also not light, since it has quite complex stories and confilcts. I'm 100% sure that I won't complain about the plot, because it's just really good and I enjoyed it very much as I love action, thriller and crime movies or books. 

(you'll get surprised when you know who's the one who frame him. yet i've guessed in the first 30 minutes and I was right. it should've been more shocking for the plot twist I guess)

And for the acting quality, I think Ji Chang Wook should be given two thumbs up. He brought more emotions in this movie. Not too far form The K2 where he successfully brought the same emotions. The author also successfully made Kwon Yu character really strong. But I just realized that he barely smiles in the entire movie (I even remember that he never laughs!) so it seems like it's a very serious movie. I wasn't surpised that he starred this kind of film, as he seems like he is the pro of action or crime dramas (see also Healer). My complain is to the other characters - the gamers, and other supporting characters. I'm pretty much sure that the actors and actresses have done the very good job to make this film. I think that the personalities in each character should've been more variative - except the villain and the girl who is one of the four gamers who helps Kwon Yu solve the case. The other three gamers, for example - I see that they're just the three same people who are funny and there are no more specific characters in each of them. But after all they're just really good when teaming up. The girl, one of the gamers, seems really cold and quiet, uses the same flat expression in the entire movie - except when she screams tho. One thing that makes her really cool in the team is she is the one who mostly takes charge of (you may call it) programming. 

And the villain - well the actor has successfully brought the acting as the crazy, psychotic human being. I won't tell any futher about the villain because (ehm) spoilers, ehehe. 

One thing that I've been asking, what is the villain's purpose of framing Kwon Yu? It's not explained and I don't know if the plot is done like that on purpose or not. I think it should've been explained.....

Overall, I can say that Fabricated City is very good for its plot and how it presents the action elements really well. I'm pretty sure that boys would probably enjoy watching this too. A notice for you out there, especially girls, who seeks for emotional, dramatic and romantic movies, this is not for you. I see no romance elements and I also think it doesn't need to be added to the film. For you who is also the lovers of actoin films, Fabricated City should be put in your bucket list. 

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